Who Moved My Blog?

Finally I made it. Although I'm not happy with how my blog template turns out to be, I finally moved to Blogspot. It's not exactly easy for me, seeing how I love the way I can manipulate HTML codes on Xanga easily as compared to Blogspot. But, oh well, I've got to start learning how to do the same for Blogspot. At least now I can link my favourite blogs from here.

I just got back from BTN (Biro Tatanegara) Course yesterday. Overall, BTN was okay. There were good things and bad ones, as usual. My fellow MMMC and PMC friends and I were confused at first as to which camp we were assigned to - Camp A or Camp B. We found out that all twinning students from INTEC are assigned to Camp B, so we headed to the hall there. It turns out that we were the last to arrive. Which made us lucky. Since the dorms were all full, we were given the guest house. There were 19 of us left, so 9 were assigned to Guest House 1 and another 10 to Guest House 2. Guest House 2 was at the very top of the place, so while climbing up the place (in an old-lady manner) my friends and I had all the lactic acid we can produce for the next five days. There were six beds and 9 of us, so my friend Maziah and I slept on the couch.. Which is not bad, really, because we were not tortured by the extreme cold air of the air cond when we woke up every morning. Plus, the cushions were so good and comfy! Maybe I would buy one just like that when I get my own house. Haha.

I had a great time hanging around with my friends, and knowing new people from other colleges as well. I met a few former schoolmates and acquantainces. The talks were.... well, all right. Some were better than the others. The LDK was.... all right, as well. But if I were to put an overall rating, I'd definitely say it is a good course. I've made some self-discovery and discovered a certain thing about myself that cannot be changed for the longest time. I've met a fellow anime fan, and another Manchester United supporter. I've endured 5 days without no news from the outside, except some short notification about who won the World Cup games and who were the losers. I was sad that England had to leave, and on penalty kick again, but I didn't expect much of them after their lackluster performance in the previous games. I'm very happy that Brazil had exited. Time for another country to lift that glory.

I wish I had spoken up more, but I didn't. I kept quiet most of the times, and my smile was my only expression. During BTN, for the first time in my life, I cried in front of strangers. Well, not really strangers, since they're my group members from other colleges (and 2 of my classmates), but it felt somewhat different to reveal yourself like that. And a bit embarrassing as well. We were supposed to write our will to the two most beloved person from our family - a will before we took off to our respective countries. Of course, everyone chose their parents. I was reluctant to read mine, as I knew just how I can easily cry over the thought of others' kindness. But of course, it was compulsary for everyone. I was the second last person to read mine out. I managed to read the first few words before my tears just started to flow crazily. I tried to control my emotions and to choke back my tears, but I just failed. Miserably. My facilitator finally asked me to turn around and face the wall instead of my group mates while reading my will. With a struggle, I managed to finish it all. It was supposed to be read for 20 times, but I think that once was enough. So did my facilitator. He told me "okay" after my first read. Ah, it was so embarrassing! I rarely let go of my emotions like that in front of others....